All I really want to do is sleep and be alone. Neither of these are options for me. I must get up and go to work. Even if I don't go to work, I won't be alone. Therefore, up I am and off I'll go.
All things are new this week. We have a new employee at work. This seems to be a trend. The atmosphere there is ever changing. The light, laughter all but gone. New faces all around. The population has changed, is changing. The workforce also is ever changing.
Everything is subject to change. The changes I'd like to see I don't. The changes that are happening aren't much to my liking.
The disappointments of the past week are weighing heavily on me. Probably because, as usual I am the giver. The taker in this instance is someone I though was there to help me. Alas, I was wrong. Even when I ask for help, I get a stern response. Of course there are times that's what I need. Not every time.
It's hard when your illusions of people are shattered. As this person has said more than once, it's none of my business how someone else behaves. So, I'll let it go. The relationship, the expectations, all of it.
Fantasizing the freedom to let others be who they are.