Then again, maybe it is. Do you have a perfectionistic view of your world? I never thought I did, I now think I was wrong about that. My expectations are high. Honestly I don't have time to "perfect" everything. Perfectionism is self abuse. All it does is torment us to no good cause. Nobody is perfect. Nobody else wants us to be.
Yesterday was full of examples. First, I obsessed over this dance business. Truth is, it was five minutes of my life. Everyone seemed to like it, yet ever since then, I have been going over in my head, how it could have been better. Why didn't I practice more? (When???) Letting it go and focusing on the fun of it and the good is the only way.
Immediately after the dance, my husband and I did a walk through with our new tenants. I was surprised by how dirty the house is. I'm also upset with myself that I didn't see it when we released the leaving tenant. SO, now I am on the hook to go in and clean. Am I a perfectionist? people pleaser? impulsive? loose lips? All of the above.
Right now I am "trying" to organize everything I have to do this week. What I need to be doing is just this minute. I can't fix everything all at once, as my sick brain wants me to do. What I "can" do is one thing at a time with peace and pacing.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Right now, I can finish what I'm doing here. Work out, take a shower and go to work. Focus on being present and the rest will fall into place. I can also, right now, give it to God and let Him deal with the timing.
Dear Sharon, This is God. I will be handling all your problems today. I don't need your help.