Actually, it's been a very manageable couple of days. It's my mind that is crowded with "stuff". I've recently agreed, well, volunteered to be honest, to be captain of a kickball team we are putting together at work. It's an honor to be of service and not to hard on my ego either.
As I revealed on Sunday, I have struggled with self worth issues most of my life. As a result of that internal struggle, I've been overlooked for several positions of responsibility through the years. I could never understand how "they" couldn't see I was right for the jobs. Turns out, it had more to do with what I thought of me than what "they" did.
Part of this journey I'm on is going to be to let go of the ego, but I am realizing I have to put it in a healthy perspective if I'm going to lay it down. You see, my ultimate goal is to operate more from my spirit, less from ego. It is clear to me now, until my ego is straightened up, trying to lay it down, will not be in my best interest.
It is also clear to me that what is not psychically in my best interest, is also not in the best interest of those around me.
If you think about it, you can most likely, remember at least "one person" at work or your family, whose energy, changes the whole environmental mood when they arrive, for the good or the bad. It is powerful.
When our energy is out of wack, it changes everything and everyone we come in contact with. Today, I am "fantasizing" a healthy dose of ego and spirit. How about you?