Have you ever had one of those nights when your head won't shut off? All the worries of the day, tomorrow, next week...are holding a committee meeting in your head? Me too, just not this night. Tonight the honors go to my sweet spouse. Problem is he likes to share.
Picture this; tucked comfortably under the covers, drifting off when out of the darkness a voice: "Is Friday payday? Are you sure?" Yes, I'm positive. Ahhh, quiet at last. Drifting, drifting, "What do you think the banks are going to do with the cyber robbers who got away with billions? Do you think it will hit our bank? Are you positive Friday is pay day? When are you guys going to practice for kickball? What? none of you know the rules? You'd better find someone to tell you...I wonder if those cyber robbers are going to hit our bank."
I decided, at this point, it was time to relocate. I've been trying to quiet my, now reeling, mind for the past hour. Reading a good book, writing in my journal when it occurs to me, God is on the throne and all's well with the world. Am I insane you may be asking yourself?
Well, maybe I am and maybe I'm not. Right now my mother's words are echoing in my mind as I picture her dumping drawers full of clothing, silverware, or whatever went in the room at hand, all over the floor. Spouting, not so quietly: "Sometimes you have to make a bigger mess to properly clean up the one already there." So true, yet lost on my 9 year old mind. Now, it holds a much deeper meaning for me. For all of us really.
While immediate worries in the night don't have a lot to do with the condition in the world, it's about finding peace in a space of chaos.
By all appearances, this world we live in is coming apart at the seams. Snow, rain, floods, wars, ISIS, Ebola. All dumped out all over our proverbial floor.
Here's the insane part; it excites me in a sick kind of way, because; Jesus said, over and over again throughout scripture, "fear not". One example: Matthew 24:5"For many will come in My name, saying, 'I am the Christ,' and will mislead many. 6"You will be hearing of wars and rumors of wars. See that you are not frightened, for those things must take place, but that is not yet the end. 7"For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom, and in various places there will be famines and earthquakes.…"
Still and always, God is on the throne and all is well with the world. I am fantasizing about the other side of all this pain and evil around us. Each of us can decide to be an oasis in the midst of this present darkness, or we can cower, waiting for the bottom to drop out. Either way it will go as planned. Goodness and mercy will prevail and one day we will sit at the table with joy and peace, without any remembrance of the trouble we went through to get there.
Right now I am smiling because; no matter what we see, it's what we know
that's important. Besides, how hard can it be to kick a silly rubber ball around the grass?