I suppose the word, fray, is a bit strong for the minor event that temporarily took me out of my bliss. But competition is definitely a part of it.
Vying for attention from the grandchildren shared with the other grandmother is daunting to say it nicely. She has familiarity on her side. I have to work a little harder, especially with the older ones.
Trying to be a peacekeeper becomes hard when you just want to rise up and say, WTF?? I retreated in hurt instead. I am not going to get involved in the competition at the expense of the babies.
I will admit, it took me a while to lick my wounds. Then I remembered the mandate in scripture to pray for your enemies. Luke 6:27 “But I say to you who hear, Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who abuse you.
While I wouldn't call Gamma an enemy, or abusive, I would call her actions passive aggressive. I also know "If you spot it, you got it." This fact alone has helped me calm down, put some perspective in place and pray for her and our situation.
It's the children that are important here and I will not expose them to any bad feelings I may be having. Removing myself was the best I could do in the moment. Reflecting on my reaction is the highest form of compassion in this situation.
Today is a new day and I will pray for peace and unity in our blended families. We've got a long row to hoe and I will make it my mission to make it straight and fantasize peace and harmony.
Looking forward to the day of acention! AMEN