Everyday, thankfully, is a new opportunity to do it better. If any of you have seen groundhog day, it's a perfect example of one person redoing the same day over and over until they perfect it. Even then, things still go wrong.
I am on a new path right now. It is strange and uncomfortable. I'm not always, or even often, doing it right. It kind of feels like learning to walk all over again. Unsteady, scary and full of the unknown.
As any of you who know me, know, I am a highly emotional person. This is a test, a lesson in controlling my emotions, not letting them control me. So far, it's been hit or miss. Each day, I hit it better, or think so, then a big miss hits ME in the face.
Sorry to those who've been in the path of it. I'm aware, and working on better control, kindness and understanding. While I'm not where I need to be, I'm not where I used to be. Work in progress.
Fantasizing the freedom to react appropriately.