Life revolved around other people. It wasn't about pursuing my dreams or a passion. It was about getting dinner on the table and making sure everyone was taken care of. At least that's how it felt at the time.
Little did I know then, every seemingly mundane, random act and/or event was a piece of the puzzle that has become Sharon. A life worth living and being proud of.
I didn't always feel this way. There was a lot of time in my life, I didn't like who I was, nor was I proud. In hind sight, despite a lot of nonsense, I did accomplish a lot during those years. Now, I can see aspects, of that time in my life, I can be proud of.
Bottom line, I have learned something through everything I've been through and am going through today. I am not as quick to anger, I don't get jealous of anybody, I am working on letting go of old resentments.
Today, the thing I am most proud of is, my ability to look in the mirror and tell myself the truth. See my character defects and actively work on correcting them. I don't apologize nearly as much as I've had to in the past, because I don't hurt others nearly as much as I used to.
I have realized, I only hurt others out of my own ignorance and insecurity. Today, I don't find security in another person, or things. Not my job or my bank account. I find it in God and the ability He has given me to grow and make straight my path.
Now, I know I'll be okay, no matter what happens. I don't know what tomorrow, or even the next hour will hold. I do know, I trust myself, in the power of my God, to find the good in all things.
I love my life today, I love my job and am surrounded by a lot of people who make my life great. I do my best to make life better, for everyone whose life I touch. In doing so, my life is better. I have found it more profitable to fight for right instead of against what is wrong.
Fantasizing the freedom in being a light in a sick, twisted world. Looking for the beauty past the chaos.