Ask - God about His purposes.
Invite God - to work in your heart
Trust God - to fulfill His purposes.
Waiting on God doesn't mean your doing nothing. It's about allowing God to do His thing." Elisapulliam.com
This waiting game is difficult. It is also an exercise in faith. I am working hard to simply relax, trust God and enjoy the time I have off work.
In the beginning, I was obsessed with getting back to work. Mainly because my team mates were having to take up the slack. Then, because I was insecure about my position.
Now, I have accepted the possibility I'll lose my position, or maybe not. Either way, I'm okay with it. For too many years I've carried anxiety and the fight against change. For too many years I've been embarrassed because when inevitable change finally comes, I'm better off than I as to begin with.
That said: What God wants, I will gladly accept. I will enjoy today in the mean time.
Fantasizing the freedom to have faith and peace no matter what life "looks like".