Every experience, every unfair, unjust moment in life serves to teach me a lesson. Tolerance mainly. Tolerance for stupidity, greed, selfishness, unawareness, etc. . . because I once was all those things. I'm sure some of it lingers still.
It's funny how easy it is to point the finger at someone else, judge them harshly, call them names, when you are not in a much better state. You may even be worse off than the ones you are judging. There are not too many people in this world who have the courage to look in the mirror instead of through a looking glass.
I feel blessed, to have learned, to look at myself for the root of the problems in my life. I had to learn it the hard way. Overhearing others talking about me behind my back and taking it to heart. Taking the harsh criticisms of other with an ear to hear the truth in their words.
It's painful, humiliating, humbling. More than that, it's been revolutionary in my life. Those painful moments have lead me to where I sit today. Better off than I've ever been, yet realizing how very far I have to go on this journey to enlightenment.
Right now, I sit here fuming just a bit at judgments being flung around. Finger pointing and exclusion over money, pride and simple ugliness. I am proud when my progeny rises above the fray and demonstrates love and acceptance in the face of criticism.
Fantasizing the freedom from judgment.