I felt like I was missing out on life. Beach time, kayaking, dancing, dinner out, travel. . . You get the picture. What I realize now is; I am happy. I have a wonderful husband who spoils me, a great job with people I love and respect, beautiful, successful children, and grandchildren. Well, if you have grandchildren, I don't have to say anymore about that.
This year my theme is love. Focusing on love for others and myself. I know I have a long way to go, but not as far as I did last year. My journey to find freedom has shown me, the only true freedom is letting go of my ego and self-importance.
This is a daily practice. I mean practice in the most base way. Moment by moment, thought by thought, choosing what to think, thereby what to feel. I found a friend recently who is very much like me. At work they call us the bobsy twins. She is a passionate and faithful Christian woman, as am I. I see myself so clearly in her. She feels things deeply and becomes disturbed. Today, while I feel things deeply, feel like I'm getting disturbed, I am calmly handling it. Looking at what good is coming of my part in things, as opposed to seeing what's not changing.
I don't think I would have seen it so closely, so soon, if God had not put a mirror up. It will be a joy to be there as she grows in grace and learns peace in the midst of speaking up for injustice and wrongdoing.
Changing how you think is a monumental task. It takes, changing how you view life, how you take care of yourself, tending your spirit, satisfying your soul. Today, I have fun at every opportunity and have peace and happiness always. Romans 12:2 “Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.”
Fantasizing the freedom to stay on top of injustice, while staying in peace.