Working toward downsizing. I have to thank my fabulous neighbors: Most of all Lisa then; Jeff, Victor, Kathy, Lucas, Tami, Randy and Sadie. I will never forget ya'll. Thank you for all your support. Special thank to my wonderful children, who have loved me through it all; and Joanie who pulls me in whenever I allow her to do so. (I love you greatly.)
This is the finalizing of the past chapter of my life. I am happier than I thought was possible. Making new friends, re-building important relationships and forging ahead.
I do have to say, I am not necessarily proud of how I've handled some aspects of this transition. What I have learned, am learning, is this; no matter how hard one tries to convince anyone, to see things thier way, it only serves to entrench them in their stance, and exaserbate your frustration.
Not to say "they" are wrong. It's just their point of view. When we are emotionally attached to someone or something, it distorts our view and point of focus. We are no longer objective.
This morning, I want to express my love to those, whom I've let go. I sincerely acknowledge and accept my part in the distruction of relationships I have valued. I hope and pray you can, someday, forgive me. Mostly learn from the pain.
What I'd like to call attention to is this: Nobody else is responsible for my happiness. The fact that I did not know this, caused me and those around me, un-necessary years of pain.
Today I take responsibility for my own happiness. Our happiness is only contingent on others, to the extent we allow it.
Fantasizing the freedom to be happy, no matter what anyone thinks of me.