There is very little I have control over. The one thing I do have control over is my attitude. Along this journey to freedom from what ails me, what ails me has changed.
What I thought was my problem turned into something else entirely. What I thought would be the solution turned into something else also.
I was working with a patient for several weeks. After all this time, 5 days a week, I realized something I hadn't seen at all. It was an OMG moment. Something very basic and obvious in that moment had eluded me for weeks. How did I miss it?
Well, I was focused on something else. Isn't that the way it is? We are so focused on what we think needs to change, we miss what is glaringly obvious. I thought my external situation was my problem when all the time it was an inside job. I was the problem. OUCH.
Today, it doesn't hurt quite so much to say, I was wrong. I am wrong much of the time. Every time I make an assumption, I am wrong. Every time I judge someone else, I am wrong. Every time I say never or always, I am WRONG. The only time being wrong is a problem, I"ve found, is when you don't know your wrong. Can't see it. Can't even conceive the possibility. OR, conceiving the possibility and not having the strength of character to admit it.
Today, seeing what is wrong is the only way I can change it. I'm not letting it get me down, I'm open to cha-cha ing my way healthy. Taking a step back is worth the time to redirect down the right path. Fantasizing freedom to admit I'm wrong and see a different way.