I can only answer for myself. Right now as I sit here, I am white light, red energy, open, knowing, giving and forgiving. I am powerful spirit, eternal.
I am also darkness, for "God created the good and the evil, both after their own purpose". Paraphrased
It is in the darkness we grow. Just as when we are sleeping, our bodies are renewed for another day. It is in darkness, we either become strong or we are crushed. Sometimes both. I know there have been times in my life when I was crushed. Digging, climbing and training, to bring all the pieces back together in a more cohesive way, built me up.
There once was a little girl who came upon a butterfly struggling to get out of it's cocoon. She felt sorry for the tiny creature and with scissors in hand, released it. Much to her dismay, without the struggle to "be born", to dry it's wings and strengthen them for flight, the butterfly, withered and died. So it is the struggles God gives us that ultimately make us who we were created to be. Or not, you are free to choose.
(Parents a word of caution. Rescuing our children, robs them of the opportunity to grow strong. Just sayin')
This I can tell you; You are not:
Your role as mother, father, sister, brother, son or daughter
We were all created for a purpose. Fantasize the freedom to be fully who you are with no apologies. Grow in the dark times. Shine in all your glory in the rest.
Only you can be you. In all the world from time immemorial God has created each of us unique. There has never been, never will be another you. So, for GOD's sake, put down the fashion magazines and be the best you, you can be.
Set yourself free to fantasize a life beyond your wildest dreams!