While I'm glad this year is coming to a close, I'm grateful for all the lessons learned. In my opinion, if I can take away some wisdom from all the hard times, it was worth it.
I learned, even though you may get what you want, it is possible it will tear your heart out. I learned that I am in charge of myself. If I'm going to have the life I've dreamed of, I need to let go of the past.
I cannot reach the future if I'm holding onto the past. I am not so nieve as to think this is going to be easy. So far it has been more painful than anything I've experienced, short of my mothers death.
This morning, I got up, worked out, walked a couple miles with my neighbor and fixed myself a watercress and berry smoothy. It's time to get with the program and become the woman I know I can be.
It's never too late to start fresh. To give myself the grace I would afford others.
I'm on my way to church and changing my life, one day at a time. This morning, I feel good, look better than I have for weeks and feel hopeful.
Fantasizing the freedom to start again as many times as necessary.