Through it all, my journey for 2015 was one of learning a new way of thinking and being in the world. One where I felt more freedom than in times past. Controlling, choosing my thoughts, my attitudes and my perspective, has changed everything.
I also believe, there is a lesson learned in all the events in our lives. It's simply a matter of stepping back and looking at it with new eyes.
I was off work for two weeks, down with anemia. "Dangerously low ferritin levels" as my doctor put it. I was giving blood every 8 weeks. This was new and different for me. I have O- which is a universal type you see. To me, it was the right thing to do. What I learned is; worrying too much about others can be to my detriment.
I got to see my daughter and grandchildren, spend time with my son and grandchildren. Precious times. When my daughter and her babies had to leave, cross the ocean again, they wept, I wept. At the end of the day I had to realize and tell my granddaughter; we are blessed to have had this time at all. Be happy for that.
All in all my year of fantasizing freedom has shown me a new way to look at freedom. While my circumstances have not changed, I have. The way I look at freedom is different. Today I have freedom from anxiety, angst and fear of the future. I am free to be happy in all situations. To remain peaceful (for the most part) through trials. Life is good.
I am free from trying to "help" unhappy people see the possibilities in life. A friend said, happiness is the by-product of a life well lived. When I heard this I realized, unhappy, unfulfilled people are that way because they've chosen it on some level. I cannot change a person's character by suggesting a book to read, etc... FREEDOM from false responsibility is huge for me. I now find, minding my own business, easier to do. I'm much happier and they, likely, are too.
The new year holds excitement at the possibilities. Each day feels that way to me now. Happy New Year! May you enjoy a life well lived through thick and thin. Fantasizing the freedom to continue to learn, and grow into a better person.