Proverbs 23:7 "As a man believeth in his heart, so is he." I spent so much of my life trying to prove myself. As I got older and wiser, I realized the only one I was trying to prove something to was myself.
I didn't think much of myself. Didn't believe I could be successful at anything. I was raised to believe I was in the way. A "pain in the ass" as my father liked to say. I wasn't protected or cherished or made to feel loved. It wasn't until I opened my heart to my Jesus that I knew real love. Unconditional love. Forgiving love.
As time has gone by, studying, praying, meditating and keeping my eyes and ears open, God has shown me great wonders. The more He exposes to me, the more I realize I how very little I know. There is so much energy in our bodies, our spirits and all around us. It is up to us to access it, acknowledge it and let it lift us up.
It is so exciting to me to dream big, pray big and live big. To finally see, I do have a purpose, and a powerful one. Also, the more I believe I can learn and do, the further I will go on this journey of life.
Just as I couldn't imagine this life I live now, I can't imagine the life God has in store for me down the road. I certainly can imagine how I would like it to look, hand it over to God and trust Him to decide. I can tell you this; prayers are rarely answered quickly, but never late, not usually the way you image it, always better.
This next chapter in my life I am going to trust myself to one I know, knows all things and has great things in store for me. Fantasizing freedom to trust my Lord completely and let go of worry and anxiety for the future.