Then I realize, that may never happen. I may never be able to just take a sledge hammer to my bathroom on a whim. Well it's not a whim, it's something I've been wanting to do for more than a few years now. But, I digress. The point is, I am in a situation where compromise, usually mine, is the name of the game.
If I could, I would spend the night gathering up all the clutter and boxing it up. Sell it, give it away, just get it out of my way. Alas, I cannot. I'd open the curtains every morning and let the sunshine in. Turn on music while I got ready for work. Oh, the list goes on and on and on.
But, I must be grateful for what I have, turn my desires over to God and get on with it. I have so many, many things to be grateful for. Starting with a companion worth the compromise. I know there are many, many lonely people out there. I also know, not everyone gets to experience love in a passionate, lasting way.
For these things I am grateful. So, how do I just turn it all over to God and trust He will work all things together for my good? 1 Peter 5:7 tell me; "Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you." When I went to my resources to look for a scripture to help me, there were so many I lost count. Telling me over and over again, LET IT GO, Let me take your life and make it better than you ever could.
Fantasizing the freedom to trust God completely with my life and sleep like a baby.