Up until now, we have been a cohesive group, helping and caring for each other and our patients. It only takes one malcontent to poison the atmosphere. I am one who tends to take on tension and let it affect my body. It makes me physically ill.
Over the past week it has been very uncomfortable for me. I think I need to take a lesson from those around me who keep telling me to let it go. It's not my fault and I cannot fix it. All I can do is be who I've always been. Don't buy into the tension, and don't take in on as a personal assault.
The one who is stirring the pot, most surely is licking the spoon. They must be more uncomfortable than I am, or they wouldn't have lashed out as they did. The why and how of it is really none of my business.
It's none of my business what someone else thinks of me. It's none of my business what's going on in their head or their life. They have their journey, I have mine. What I'm learning is, I have a problem with taking on more than I should. Allowing the malcontent of others to invade my peace.
If I am to truly be free, I have to allow others the freedom to be upset. It's funny how when I get to a place where I feel I've come so far, more work is revealed. Darn it. I know I'm a work in progress and will never "arrive". Therefore, I have to allow others to have their journey.
Fantasizing the freedom to be happy in the presence of tension.