Of course I realize, it's not even two months into the year. I also realized a goal is something one accomplishes over time, not in an instant. What I am also realizing is one needs to take into account God's plan. His plan, I have found, is often not in line with my plan.
Proverbs 16:9 “The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” This is true. This year, so far, has seen a miracle or two, rendering me in a state of lethargy. At first, I thought this word too strong. As I looked up the meaning, I found, it is not.
The first miracle at the end of January, allowed my husband and I to bless someone else, be the answer to their prayers. This was a remarkable feeling. Then just last week, something my family has been praying for, for over 15 years, has been made possible. The emotional roller coaster of the past 6 weeks has been exhilarating on one hand and exhausting on the other.
I went an entire week, a week off of work, sitting on my butt. As I looked around the house, noting all the work needing to be done, I sat on my butt. As I walked past my gym, instead of working out, I sat back down on my butt.
As I lamented my week of languor to my co-workers, they looked at me like I was crazy. "Of course your tired." "What's wrong with taking a break to rest?" "Sometimes one just needs a rest." were some of the comments I heard. It had never occurred to me, it was okay to be tired and simply need to let myself have a break.
Not only a physical break, (for God knows, I've had plenty of sitting on my butt time over the past few years) but an emotional, mental break. While I haven't been as active as usual recently, I've certainly felt the pressure to make sure most everything gets done.
Today, I am letting myself off the hook. I'll do the best I can with each moment as they come. Live one day at a time. Do one thing each day to move closer to the goals I've set for 2016. Remember, something huge has happened and it has changed everything.
Life is not something you can always plan for. Of course it is wise to plan for the future. At the same time, wisdom also says; Be flexible, for if one is too rigid with their life, it is likely to break.
Fantasizing the freedom to change my course as life dictates.