Today, I think I know what my purpose is. It has been a common thread throughout my life. Taking care and encouraging others. When my mother was dying of cancer, God positioned me close to her geographically so I could help her. As my husband has gone through his years of pain and disability, God has given me strength and heart to remain alongside him to love and help.
For many years, when I was raising my children, I worked in jobs I was marginally good at, some very good at, yet felt empty to me. They assisted me and my family as far as hours and such, but I felt drained and stressed.
At this, later stage in my life, I feel and believe I am doing part of what God created me for. I get to help people everyday in a physical, emotional and spiritual way, all day long. I am flourishing and getting good results with them.
Do I think this is the be all and end all? NO, I want to write (more), do public speaking, travel and reach out to larger numbers of people. The speaking is something I'm good at and enjoy. To this day, I haven't had the opportunity, but I know in my heart it will come. I've had the training and I believe a gift.
The waiting for dreams to materialize as I pray and do what I can, is half the fun. Wondering, waiting, to see how God will bring it to pass in my life. I don't see retirement as a dream or a goal in my life. I do, however, see change as the years go by. At a young age my life responsibilities dictated my purpose, as I grow older, richer in experience and passion, my purpose has grown and morphed into something I never dreamed of.
My mother-in-law once told me, Sharon, this is but a season in your life. It was a long time ago and it has stuck with me. She was wise to share that insight with me. It has held me up many times going through difficult things.
Each season brings new and exciting opportunities, talents, knowledge and gifts. If you are open to them, they can bring you untold joy, terror and exhilaration. It is, as I've said before a rollercoaster ride, but then, don't people wait in long lines to ride the biggest and best rollercoasters?
Fantasizing the freedom to hop on a new and shiny rollercoaster, raise my hands to the sky and relish the ride!