It is important to me to keep my promises. It is also becoming more and more important for me to step out and be social. Church has all the more pull on me.
Wishing and dreaming of the ability for my mate to enjoy the freedom to accompany me and still do the chores at home later, doesn't change the fact that he cannot. What to do?
At this point in time I am inclined to go to church and hopefully the chores will wait until I get home. It would be so much easier to make the decision if I could count on this to happen. Last Sunday I cancelled with these friends and I do not feel good about doing it again.
On the other hand I want to be there for my spouse. In this moment my stomach is churning and I feel either way I show up as letting someone down. Therefore, I feel I must be true to myself, trust God to work it out and go to worship with old friends.
Dear God, I lay this quandary in your hands to work all these things together for good. I do trust you. Fantasizing the freedom to make these simple decisions without dilemma.