As I went through my e-mail this morning I saw the quote above. It hit me hard in the heart. You see, I've experienced this phenomena for years.
I've been attacked repeatedly. As long as I can remember, the men in my life have verbally abused me, constantly making me feel worthless and inadequate. Cars appear out of the woodwork and crash into my cars ten crashes I can recall. I failed at most career paths I set out on., this morning as I originally wrote this blob with divine inspiration. I erased it accidentally. These are some examples of many.
Several years ago I was a persistent prayer warrior. On my face, interceding for others daily. Studying the Bible daily for 25 years. I often witnessed people crying at the miracles in their lives. It was so heartbreaking to watch them realize answers, while prayers for myself lie dormant.
Luke 11:5-9 says it perfectly: "Which of you who has a friend will go to him at midnight and say to him, 'Friend, lend me three loaves;
6 for a friend of mine has arrived on a journey, and I have nothing to set before him';
7 and he will answer from within, 'Do not bother me; the door is now shut, and my children are with me in bed; I cannot get up and give you anything'?
8 I tell you, though he will not get up and give him anything because he is his friend, yet because of his persistence, he will rise and give him whatever he needs.
9 And I tell you, Ask, and it will be given you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."
This principle is true for both good and evil.. It wasn't the big events that pushed me over the edge. It was the consistency. I was so angry and frustrated. Finally I threw in the towel and walked away from Jesus. The attacks subsided and so did my purpose in life.
As it turns out this frustration and anger blocked my heart from receiving answers. I turned my back on church, clean fun, my sobriety and moving forward with anything.
God never gave up on me. I crashed, burned and ended up in rehab for over two months. It changed everything.
As the anger was released, my heart opened up and my prayers began to reap rewards. Today my life is joyful, productive and exciting.
God says to us in: Joel 2:25 "Then I will make up to you for the years the swarming locust has eaten, The creeping locust, the stripping locust and the gnawing locust, My great army which I sent among you."