HOWEVER, right now, I am okay with all of it. Ed is working on our taxes. Looking back at last year, has been painful. With that perspective, I think this year is going pretty darn well. Quite normal if I really look at it objectively. When I think about where I was at this time last year...well, let's just say it wasn't pretty.
This year the theme is freedom. Fantasizing freedom to be exact. At nearly the end of February I'd say I am free of the need to do each day perfectly. Free of addictions that have plagued me most of my life. Free to start my day late without an anxiety attack about it. Free to say "I don't know. No. or yes!" without dissecting the entire scenario.
To me this is freedom. I do not know where the rest of day, let alone the rest of the year will take me, but today, I am free to be happy with that. Even elated, because that opens up all manner of possibilities. I am also free, to be able, to handle whatever comes down the road. Be it good or be it bad, I am strong and trust myself to do the right thing.
Today is a day the Lord has made, I WILL rejoice and be glad in it...now off to the shower!