I could be upset, I'm not. I could be anxious, I'm not. I could be a lot of negative things. I choose today to accept that I cannot change what's going on around me.
So, what to do? I went shopping. Worked out at a gym. up the road. Cleaned the room. Had a BIG breakfast (out in the sticks, it's 20 miles to anywhere).
I'm trying to make the most of an undesirable situation. I am so grateful and thankful I asked for two extra vacation days off, before I left work. I am so grateful and thankful we weren't on the road when he got sick. I am so grateful and thankful we have the resources to stay where we are. There are so many things to be grateful for.
Ed, my hubby, is past the worst of it, so I can go visit with my mother in law this afternoon for a bit. So, I am looking at the advantages in this time to myself, instead of wishing it were different.
There is such a lesson in that. How many times do you catch yourself saying; "I'll be happy when. . ." Fill in the blank. For me it would be; I'll be happy when Ed is well. Try some of these on for size: When I lose weight, when I get married, when I get divorced, when I have a baby, when the kids grow up, a new job, college degree, etc...
Be happy now. Now is all we have. Go to that party even if you aren't as thin as you'd like. Live life to fullest for tomorrow may not come. Fantasizing the freedom to be content in all things.