Right now, I am going through some medical issues and feel really whipped. Also feeling a bit sorry for myself to be honest. Either I never learned to ask for help, or I am simply sad and upset that there is no help when I need it.
I am not usually one to feel sorry for myself, of late anyway. So I have to look a bit deeper to see what's really going on. My career of choice, as a personal trainer and now a physical therapist assistant are both helping jobs. I love the people I am charged with, from my family members to the residents at the facility I work at.
From how I am feeling to hoping others will do for me what I've done for them I have set myself up for disappointment. Of course "they" can't know how I feel unless I tell them. Even when I tell them, I am expecting them to be me, they are not.
What I should be focusing on is doing for myself what I do for them. ALSO and most importantly, lean on God, who I know cares for me and has my best interest at heart. That said I took the day off, going to see a specialist and get my nails done, as they are falling apart.
Philippians 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
Fantasizing freedom to lean on Jesus and let my loved ones off the hook.