I may not have achieved a great career up to now, that can change. What I have achieved is a great spirit. Coming from believing I was worth nothing, to knowing I am priceless has been a hard road.
This morning I was looking at some paintings my son posted. They were caricatures of fathers and daughters, depicting a large protective father and a small, trusting daughter. They made me cry, because he is that kind of a father. Mine was not.
Fathers, if you hear anything, hear me now. If you have daughters, you will shape the way they choose a man, the way they show up in the world. You can give them wings or shackles by your words and deeds toward them. If you have sons, you will shape the way they treat your daughter, the way they feel about themselves as men.
My father crushed his daughters. All of us. I was the only one who found a way to claw my way out of the pit he pushed us in. It was by providence, I married into a family who showed me love, support and grace.
It hasn't been easy, I don't mean to sound like it was. It has been worth it. It took perseverance. The hardest part came in the ability to look in the mirror and realize I was the only one who could change my life.
I've studied, prayed, done counseling and humbled myself under the care of others. Most of all, I've had a willing spirit. A desire to be better, do better and leave this world better than I found it.
As a young woman, I thought the worst thing to happen was getting old. I was so wrong. Not to say I'm old, but I'm not young anymore either. Well, I must qualify this statement by saying, I'm middle aged in my body, younger in my mind than I've ever been.
It is only in the years gone by, the work done, I've come into my own as a human being. In the end, it's not about who has the least wrinkles, it's about who has made the biggest impact on others. I think I have done the best I can to enrich the lives of those I come in contact with. I pray I am able to touch many lives in a positive way before it's time to move on.
Fantasizing the freedom to continue growing and learning and loving.