You see, I've allowed my mind to go places it doesn't belong. My mind is a dangerous place to venture alone. I really have to ask God along. Yesterday I decided to take the time to meditate and pray, as I did this morning. It makes such a huge difference.
I've also been reading Psycho=cybernetics which is a technique to change your sub-conscious mind. The place all your behavior really originates. It has to do with your self image. Also the reason dream boards work. When you change what you believe about yourself, your life, then...your life changes.
Change is also exhausting. So much change, even good change is stressful. One day at a time makes it easier to handle. I once heard someone ask: "How do you eat and elephant?" One bite at a time. This is how I have to "eat" life to keep it in perspective.
All we have is now. So don't think too hard or defer happiness "until". Be happy now. You might be surprised to see circumstances follow your lead. Hmmm, just a thought.