This has really taken the wind out of my sails. Then, one of our favorite patients died. I found myself mourning in a way I haven't experienced before with patients. It's always sad, at the same time I know they are free. Frances is now free, but it sucks for me. THEN, I received an urgent call from my physician telling me I have an extremely low iron count.
Up to now, I believed myself strong, only to find out I am not. While it is humbling, it is also a reminder how very much I need my Lord. He is the one I look to. I will overcome the judgments with love, the mourning with good memories and the iron issue with the correct treatment.
The greatest lesson I learned here, which I should have know by now, is change happens when you least expect it and generally comes in 3's. It was my mistake becoming complacent. Although I have been openly grateful for all the people and blessing is my life, it doesn't change the winds of change.
It is up to me now to bow down and be grateful for all I am and all I have. Grateful for a good doctor, a good job, and the connection I still have with my dear friend. It is also up to me to speak the truth in love, and, know when to keep my mouth shut and just remain loving.
Fantasizing the freedom to move with the wind!