The results were broken down into who we really were, who we thought we should be and a mix of both. I was amazed at the complete difference in who I really am and who I think I need to be. Virtually opposite.
It gave me pause. I had to really think about why I feel I need to be someone other than who I am to be accepted. First of all; it's not true. Second; who do I think I'm kidding?
Even though I was trying to be more like I thought I "should" be. . . compliant, following, instead of leading the way. Who I really am is what my co-workers identified with. I wasn't fooling anybody.
To be clear, I wasn't consciously trying to "fool" anybody, I was simply trying to be different than my nature would lead me to be. I felt I wasn't good enough.
I don't think I'm much different than most of us. It seems as though it's a universal issue. This feeling of not being enough just as we are. I've heard it said; we are human beings, not human doings. Just to be what God created us to be is enough.
We all have a purpose on this earth. I was created for this time and this place to accomplish God's will. Nobody can do what I do, the way I do it. This is true for all of us. There is no other you. Be the best you, you can be. Fantasizing the freedom to be myself and know that is enough.