It has been a learning experience. Like forgiveness. When I was at a time in my life where I needed to forgive, to move ahead in my life, at first I could only do it by an act of my will and by faith. I didn't feel it. As I practiced, one day I realized it was done.
I think surrender, for me, is going to be like that. I simply need to do it by will and faith. Moment by moment let go of things as I realize I am holding on too tight.
Surrender: to yield (something) to the power of another. My dreams, my ideas, my plans. I once heard a teacher say: Don't let something good rob you of something great. I think holding on to my rigid idea of what my life should look like, is robbing me of the great plan God has for me.
I also think, if I were finally able to let go of my will, life would change for me in unimaginable ways. Ephesians 3:20-21 "Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, 21to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen. He is able when I am not.
Fantasizing the freedom to surrender my all to His all.