I am also thinking about a colleague of mine who, not so long ago, was lamenting a long weekend excursion being ruined by the cold. I started to open my mouth when he very curtly said: "Sharon, if you say something positive right now I'll kill you!" Well, I didn't and now I'm glad, because right now I'm not feeling very positive.
This scripture was swimming around the periphery of my mental rant, as I lay in bed stewing:
Isaiah 40:31 - "But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew [their] strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; [and] they shall walk, and not faint."
Whatever! I know God was trying to get through and I was not ready to hear it. I don't know if this shows through, but right now the font on my screen is all messed up, it's a reflection of what's going on inside me right now, so I'm not even going to waste my time trying to fix it. Kind of a metaphor and I'm liking it.
Okay, so, my Spark is kicking in, my tea is brewing and I'm about ready to get my act together. Sometimes we all just need to rant. For the past week the water system in our house has been wanky. The dishes and laundry are piling up, it's very uncomfortable to me. I want thing to be in order.
Recently I've reversed roles with my husband and things have not been done the way I would do them. That has to be okay with me. I think this is where the waiting comes in. Waiting for him to get his footing, waiting for me to relax about things that don't matter so much. When you come right down to it, every time something disturbs your spirit, it's a lesson in the making.
This situation with the water is about to be rectified and life will proceed in a more orderly fashion. What can I take away from it? The dishes will get done, so will the laundry, how much of it I have to contend with will be manageable. Tonight, turn the heater on so I can get up more easily tomorrow.
The extra time "resting", well as much as I allowed myself, will serve me later today. What I'm starting to realize is that I'm allowing temporal things to disturb my spirit and potentially taint the kind of day I'll have. This attitude has the power to roll down hill to the people I'm scheduled to "help", my co-workers, family and anyone else who might have the bad luck to run into me.
I am so grateful and thankful right now that "talking" it out has given perspective to a trite disturbance that had the potential to ruin a day for me and others. I can carry on with my day and "not faint" at the small stuff. Amen.