As I've said so many times, everything, is subject to change. Over the past two years, I've made many changes in myself. This alone raised my happiness and joy levels. The one thing I cannot change in another person.
A few months ago, my husband had a potentially life changing surgery. It hasn't looked too good up to now. But, I can see a difference.
This is my birthday weekend. Friday, after work, I suggested a jaunt to the beach. We went. As I walked up over the dunes, five miles from my house, it took my breath away.
I hadn't realized how very long it had been since we ventured out just for the fun of it. We stayed for an hour of peace and joy and sun.
Yesterday we took new bikes out on our local waterway park, we rode, saw an Osprey in a branch above our heads and a Manatee lumbering up the waterway.
Tonight is dinner and cake with our some of our children.
Just these small, everyday, events have recharged me. Given me a smile, a good night sleep and hope for better things to come.
It's not the big, grandiose events in life that make it a good life. Of course they are wonderful and add a lot. At the same time it's the little joys we allow ourselves that keep us going in between.
Tomorrow is my birthday. I'm not upset that I'm closing in on the end of the 50's. My life is richer and happier right now than I can remember it being in a long time. Surrounded by love, babies, good friends, a good man and successful children. Who could ask for more than that?
Fantasizing the freedom to be happy right where I am, always.