I was so uncomfortable, frustrated, even angry. You see, I felt like I had, have, a lot to say. Unfortunately I felt "wrong" about expressing myself. Not because I thought I was wrong, I did think I was irrelevant and people really didn't seem to care what I had to say. WORSE, criticized me for speaking up.
Today, I realize, God created the desire in me to speak. All those years of biting my tongue, second guessing myself, really paid off in the end. I spent most of those years studying about the things I believe, the things I care about and everything I felt "wrong" about.
At this later stage of life, I am experiencing the fruits of all my curiosity and drive to learn. I am now in a position to pursue my dreams of speaking. To put myself out there and share all the wonders I have learned, experienced, dream of, and have become.
If you have a dream, chances are good, God put it in your heart. Don't mistake a not yet, for a no on the road to realizing that dream. When I "tried" to make myself heard, I wasn't ready. Now, it appears, people actually, really, listen when I speak.
Even though, I am not on a stage in a large forum (YET), I have to believe, those who hear me, need what I have to offer at that particular time in their lives. So, while I still question myself at times, whether or not to quiet down, for the most part I am comfortable and confident in what I share.
I recently met a woman with a dream. When she speaks about it, her face, literally, lights up. One who was moments before struggling with depression, instantly changed. I wonder just how many of us go through life with a dream buried in our hearts, thinking it too outrageous to realize.
Listen up! (tee hee) If you have a dream, you also have what it takes to realize it. If only you believe.
Fantasizing the freedom to see and say YES, when doors to make my dream a reality, open.