During that time, it felt as though I would never change. I was hopeless and ready to give it all up. In fact it took a lot of heart ache to get to a place where I had to change, or die.
When the time came, I found angels all around me that helped me get the help I needed. People that made it possible for me to stop my life, take the time I needed to get well. It's funny how it is so clear, as I look back over my life, there is a plan.
Who you are is a culmination of all the things that you've been through in life. The good, the bad and the ugly. If you are willing to look outside yourself. Ask, what am I to learn from the situation or state I find myself in? When you are ready for a change, help will come. Whether you ask in a prayer or a phone call, help will come.
Holding onto shame and secrets is the way we stay sick. I have found people to be so gracious and accepting of me when they know all of me. I never would have thought it to be so. I also know I wouldn't be where I am today if my life had been a bed of roses.
Life can be sweet, even in the face of fear. Stand up to it, challenge it, work through it. Coming through to the other side, is more beautiful and full of love than I can even express. So, don't let go of your hope, your dreams or your future. Everything is subject to change and all we have to do is take the first step.
Fantasizing the freedom, always to stay open to growth