What does my future hold? The fact is, I do not know. Nobody does. So, why do I insist on dwelling on it? That also, I do not know. If I just do today, I'm okay.
So, it's Friday, feeling okay this morning. What this day holds, I do not know. I can imagine for myself, good things or not. If I were to have the perfect day, what would it look like?
Hmmm, the perfect day for me would be to get some sun, some exercise, talk to both my children and smile. Not too much to ask. In fact, as I look at it, I am responsible for making all those things happen.
As I prepare for another day in paradise, it is my choice to step up or lie down. This week, for the most part I've been lying down. Giving in to the fatalistic view of the future. Feeling hopeless and stuck.
Life is hard, that's a fact. It's up to me to make the most of it, that, also, is a fact. We all get down sometimes, that's human. It's in the getting back up we become strong. People tend to have a view of me as a strong woman. I'll take that. At the same time, I'm not as strong as you think.
A little grace, a little sympathy once in a while, goes a long way. I am blessed to have people in my life who give me just enough of that. Too much is not good, none is worse.
Fantasizing the freedom from worry about the future and the ability to live in the moment.