I've done my best to live within the constraints of my life. I've done some things within those limits, I've missed out on much, much more. I'm really reaching my limit.
Talking this morning, I'm informed I'm being mean, expressing my feelings. This attitude has kept me silent for the best part of 40 years. That's on me. It's time to break free of the constraints I can break free of. This is one of them.
I have the right to express myself in a healthy way. God knows I've been on the receiving end of it plenty of times. There are a lot of things I hold back. Feelings that build up inside me I cannot express. This is a dangerous place for me to be.
I've been struggling with sugar intake. It's gotten to the point of ridiculous. Now, I'm starting to see it as a coping mechanism to the stress I feel inside. I need to get control of that, before I can get control of my sugar.
The sugar is simply a replacement for other substances I will not allow myself, and rightly so. I guess if I have to use something, there are worse things than sugar, but not much. Sugar is an evil all it's own, but I'll save that for another day.
Fantasizing the freedom to speak my mind.