It's amazing how hard it is to get back into a good habit once you've cast it aside. So many disappointments and let downs and I just let my hurt and anger turn my head away from who I am at the core.
A Christian warrior. Prayer warrior. Now, the difference is, I'm learning to believe for myself as I can believe for others. You see, my prayers were always affective for the other people I prayed for. Not so much for me.
The difference in the two, I know now, was that I believed you were worthy of your request I was not in my own heart and mind. Today I believe I am worthy of the blessings I pray for. It is so much easier to see others receive their miracles than to see them for myself.
This is where this journey originated and now has come full circle. Of course there will be trouble come around. It is natural. "Matthew 5:45 (KJ21)45 that ye may be the children of your Father who is in Heaven. For He maketh His sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. For the rain pours down on the good and the evil alike."
Once again, it may rain on my parade, but Jesus is my umbrella. If only I believe, which is what I'm learning. The believing part, believing with my whole heart and mind and soul. Today I am up for my meeting and work. I pray, Lord, give me your strength to get through the day. Amen.