This morning I felt like just something light. Something to wonder and smile at. What is the most creative thing you have done? Thought of? Created?
My husband and my son are quite clever. Both are often coming up with great ideas for products. Once Ed, my husband, had an idea that I'm certain would have made us stupid rich. Then...wha, wha, nothing. It makes me realize that jumping in with both feet is not all that bad. At least I'm jumping in.
I don't want to give the impression I'm downing Ed. Not at all. It takes a lot of effort, not to mention money and time to follow through with a project like he was proposing. This is the case in instances of any idea for change or growth.
There is always a price to be paid for living the dream. The bigger the dream, the higher the price. If I were to look at the entire job, in anything, before I began, I would not have begun. Fantasizing the end result has egged be on.
As I sit here searching my mind for an example, it amazes me how many I find. I think the first was to stand up to bullies in a new school in the 6th grade. It was scary, and it paid off. I remember telling you the story and relating that I was simply too stupid to be scared. Now I see, how brilliant God was, giving me a blind spot when it comes to taking on something big and scary. Take a risk. Either way, you'll learning something grand or get beaten to a pulp (It only hurts for a little while). Both have occurred along the way. At least I can say I tried.
To try and fail is okay. Never to try is sad. I know many, many souls who sit in mediocrity. Dead end jobs they hate, bodies they hate, marriages they hate, abodes they hate. WHY? Why not go to school, change careers, work out, eat right, find a fun sport you like, go to counseling, work on yourself to make the marriage stronger or yourself happier? Why not?
Many of you know me well enough to know that will ask the question to your face.
The answer that comes up again and again is; '"It's too hard. Well I'm hear to tell you, for me at, least status quo was far harder than change. I'll also tell you it never stops. Is it not true that when you "Just" put up a new shower curtain, suddenly the paint looks shabby? THEN the light fixtures don't look right anymore,...You get the picture.
One may look at my life from out "there" and believe it to be ordinary. I am here to tell you it is not. I don't have more money than God, a fancy house an impressive degree or any outstanding accomplishments to brag about. I do have a curious mind that stays on "excited about life mode" all the time. Constantly changing and growing. Sometimes I get in the middle of a project (school and 3 months of rehab are two good examples) and think to myself, "WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING!!!!"
I was fantasizing freedom from mediocrity and I found it. Why not jump in? curiosity's just fine.