Loving on purpose, as far as I'm concerned, is the most difficult. Thinking on purpose takes practice and you do it under-cover. Speaking on purpose takes restraint and follows the thinking part. Again, it is possible to do this under-cover. Nobody knows what you don't want them to know, unless of course you have a "billboard face". Those of you who know me, understand what a "billboard face" is.
Don't feel alone if you are confused at this point, so am I. All I really know; is love has the power to change everything. I also know feelings are fickle and I am not in control of mine just yet.
I thought I was, until, this little incident happened:
Wednesday is the first kickball game of the season. I am captain and our roster is a bit light. I made a comment to my friend, goes something like this: I am not the kickball police. If someone doesn't make a game, it's on them, I really don't care. Okay, got it? Weeeel, approximately 2 minutes later this same friend and fellow Platypus duck, told me she would be tied up with friends and miss the first "one". In a flash, I was half way down her throat. Luckily, before I tore her a new asshole, she explained, she would miss practice.
WOE, what just happened!? Guess I still have work to do.
My point is this; Love is not as much a feeling, as it is a decision. So, decide, before you put your feet on the floor, to love no matter how you feel. Fantasize the many blessings love will return to you.
We are all free to love or hate. Watcha gonna do??