Almost 21 months sober and no consideration. It flowed as much, if not more, than I remember. "That's life" as Frank Sinatra would sing. It would be nice to have at least one person to stand with me for support, if nothing else.
I must remember, when I was "active" I would be right there with them. Also, there is nothing so bad a drink won't make it worse. More to the point, there is nothing so good that a drink won't fuck it up.
I am blessed to be well, free of a hang over this morning. I am blessed to have a program that helps me stay away from a drink one day at a time. Just for today I will remember I am, happy, joyous and free of the "need" for a drink today.
Feeling like I'm on anther planet. No meetings for respite, no means of escape, except here and in my own mind. I am, today, focused on what's important and pray I will be able to stay in the spirit through this test.
Fantasizing freedom to remain; Happy, joyous and free today in the face of this uncomfortable, dangerous place I find myself in.