That said, I have developed a rather flexible attitude over the years. If the changes I'd hoped for do not materialize, I won't be heart broken. I will adapt. I'm not really sure this is necessarily a good thing.
I think adapting is good to a degree; then it just becomes martyrdom. There has to be some sense of hope, of a resolution to come. Or, simply changing my attitude toward the situation. It is completely in my control to change my life.
It is a matter of just doing it. I remember years ago when I wanted to lose weight. The Nike ad had just come out "Just DO it". I'd tell myself that, often. Just put your shoes on and go for a walk, do your exercise, etc. . . It worked.
I think to get myself out of this funk, just getting up to write was a step in the right direction. Getting out of the house will also be a good step. Getting busy doing the yard work I've put off, going to the beach for a walk, going out with friends. All these things are in my control.
My circumstances may not change any time soon. Then again, they may change dramatically. I have to change my attitude toward them before any real progress can be made. We will always go through good times and hard times. If we keep a good attitude, it won't matter so much which your in at any given time.
Fantasizing the freedom to be happy anyway.