I was in my 40's before I even realized I felt this way. It's taken even longer, deep into my 50's, before I mastered it in any way.
Recently I fell back into some old, familiar ways. This is NOT a good thing. I'm sure many of you can relate.
Today, I have been able, after a short time, not only to forgive myself, but give myself the grace I would grant another. Why is it so easy to condemn ourselves for our bad actions, character defects, etc. . .? I certainly wouldn't condemn someone else the way I have myself.
It feels good to be back on the right track. It also feels good to have enough love for myself, to let it go and move forward.
Fantasizing the freedom to love myself enough to say: "It's okay honey, just pick yourself up and keep fighting the good fight.