Unfortunately for me, I grew up in a household that did not teach me how to have fun, or that it was even allowed most of the time.
My mom was fun sometimes. Silly an imaginative. Usually when my dad was out of town in the later years. Suffice it to say, here, now, in my late 50's, I am finally learning how to have good, clean fun. I have fun at work and am stepping out more and more to have fun with friends after work.
I am realizing the lack of fun in my life is all on me. I am the one who was afraid, intimidated and felt like I was doing something wrong all the time. Now, I am thankful I am around to enjoy these years as best I can.
There are many roll models for me to see, it is never too late to change my life. To enjoy little things and make new friends. Women, older than me out on the dance floor, riding bikes, taking trips together to far off lands, eating new foods and laughing out loud.
Fantasizing the freedom in my soul to join the club of ageless goddesses, living large and having tons of fun.