Owning up to your mistakes is the next level of learning. It is extremely difficult, and rewarding. I have found people to be, for the most part, understanding. It also opens the way for a dialogue to allow healing of hurt feelings on both sides. Growing in character along the way.
It has taken years and years to realize, not only have I learned from all my mistakes, but in fact, they have made me the woman I am today. A woman I can be proud of. Someone who never gave up the fight to live better, be better. Be someone who can honestly say at the end of the day, I made a difference in someone else's life.
This last college program I completed was one of the hardest things I've ever done in my life. This coupled with the fact that I was a basket case at the time, made it doubly hard. I remember how hard I tried to do my best. One day one of my professors said' "Why don't you just give up?" I told him; "You can throw me out, but I will never give up."
After graduation, with honors, that same professor told me they didn't give up on me because they knew I'd be a good therapist. They were right. I love my job helping people everyday to become stronger and enjoy a better quality of life.
Life is a journey, you will go through hard times, good times, and on the shelf times. The key to a prosperous, happy, fulfilled life is to keep moving. Don't stop believing in yourself. Sometimes you may be the only one who does, but do.
Today when I make a mistake, it is a lot easier to let it go and move on. Beating up on myself serves no good purpose. Moving ahead and using the mistake to make the world a better place, will. Fantasizing the freedom to screw up and keep my head up.