At first, defiance felt like power to me. Then it progressed to anger. I was an aggressive, angry young woman. When it became so bad that I made people cry, I knew it had to change, but I didn't know how.
Now, years later, I am free of the anger. It was a process, not a fun one, to let go of all the anger. I wasn't even aware of most of it. That, opened my heart to realize, it is love that is the true, complete face of power.
Lately, I have been experiencing something akin to fear, a dull, underlying panic that my life will never be what I want it to be. When the feeling became overpowering, I realized I needed to take a step back and ask myself; what is it I really believe?
If I am honest and thinking on purpose, it is my God I believe. He has told me that he's on the job and doesn't need my help to pull it off. I must remember always, God has a plan for me and for all of us. Jeremiah 29:11-13 tells us; "11 For I know the plansA)' data-cr="#cen-NIV-19647A"> I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosperB)' data-cr="#cen-NIV-19647B"> you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.C)' data-cr="#cen-NIV-19647C"> 12 Then you will callD)' data-cr="#cen-NIV-19648D"> on me and come and prayE)' data-cr="#cen-NIV-19648E"> to me, and I will listenF)' data-cr="#cen-NIV-19648F"> to you. 13 You will seekG)' data-cr="#cen-NIV-19649G"> me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
Fantasizing the freedom to do today without fear of the future. AMEN