Although, I know there are many good souls who care about me, pray for me and are there for me, I feel so alone right now. I also know that if I have a problem, the answer is me.
I am usually a strong, determined, go getter at heart. Unfortunately, my get up and go, got up and left. The one person I have to lean on, is not strong enough to take the weight. It is not anybody's fault. As always, I am pretty much on my own.
As a person who feels the need to know what's going on at all times, it's hard to be in this position, ill and not knowing why or what to do about it. What I need to do right now, is pray and leave it at the foot of the cross. I know enough to know, these dark times usually bear much fruit if I am faithful and trust my Jesus.
With that, I am fantasizing freedom to live in the light.